I Made It

I made it through the night. It's now day 2. I still feel crappy. I'm still light headed. I would love nothing more than to go outside with my coffee and get rid of this feeling with a cigarette. But, I can't do that.I was so angry and feeling crazy last night that I cried myself to sleep. This is what I get for choosing this time to quit. I am an emotional wreck because I am going back to work next week, and I don't want to; I don't want to leave my baby. I'm also PMSing right now, badly. Mix those two things, the fact that I'm stressing about my weight, and some other stressors, and this is really hard. A part of me wants to give up today, see a doctor about getting back on Wellbutrin (also known as Zyban)and then try again once the medication kicks in. When I took it before, I was able to quit easily, but started smoking again a few weeks after I stopped taking the medication.
I don't like feeling bitchy like this. Aaron is avoiding me, which makes me feel worse. I don't know what to do. I'm also enduring a ton of pain right now. My left wrist has been hurting and it's getting worse everyday. I'm to the point now that it hurts so badly when I pick up my baby, or move in certain ways, that I cry. Ugh!
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I have been quit for 1 Day, 7 hours, 43 minutes and 6 seconds (1 days). I have saved $2.72 by not smoking 13 cigarettes. I have saved 1 hour and 5 minutes of my life. My Quit Date: 3/18/2007 12:48 AM